YAADAIN .......

````zindagi aye zindagi !!
aa baithain kahin peepal ki chaown mein ....
aa sath tere main sametun kisse isi gawn mein .....


school k rikshe par ,bhaiya ji ke sang wo gane...
orange icecream  khane ko wo  pal pal hum bhage ..

padosi ki bagiya se phool churakar jo bacche sare bhage ..
mummy ki daannt se bachne ko na jane kya kya bahane mare ..

saheli k sang wo golgappe k thele par liye chatkare ...
isi bachpan main kiye humne doston se bade bade wade ....

kabhi socho to h sab ye kisse kahaniyan purane ....
zindagi k bikhrae pannon main samato to hain ye pyari yaadain ...


zindagi aye zindagi !!
aa baithain kahin peepal ki chaown mein ....
aa sath tere main sametun kisse isi gawn mein .....


are sawan main teejon par wo menhadi jo lagwayain ..
choti badi sabhi peepal k jhoolon par ladd jayain ...

kacche aam ki fuljhariyan aur ek imli k peeche ki wo ladaiyan ...
roothna manana ....fir hans kar hath milane  ki sunwayiyan ...

sabse chup k ..papa ki shirt aur mummy ki sari pahanane ki koshishain ...
pen se mooch banakar sheeshe main dekh bhagwanji se khud ko jaldi bada karne ki arziyaan ..

kabhi socho to h sab ye kisse kahaniyan purane ....
bade hokar yaad aati hain wo choti-2 pyari-2 naadaniyan ......

zindagi aye zindagi !!
aa baithain kahin peepal ki chaown mein ....
aa sath tere main sametun kisse isi gawn mein .....

O Kanha ................

chali aaungi us par ....awaz de kar to dekho .
chhorkar ye sara sansar .......pukar kar to dekho..


O KANHA !!

janu main khud ko RADHA ... shringar main to dekho..
astitva hua mera adhoora .. kiya h kya tumne aaj zara dekho ...
darpan bhi laage soona ......sab kuch hua paraya dekho...


palpal main sunun bansi teri...hua kya tera chamatkar to dekho..
chaunkun main kshan kshan ....KANHA!! kya tum hi ho mere dwar dekho..

CHAHA H !!

chaha h ...
teri aankhon main ho duniya meri ....
jan sakun kya h khwahish teri...

chaha h....

khwahish bane chahat meri...
de sakun tujhe jo h mannat teri..

chaha h ....

tere khwabon main ho parchayi meri..
sath chal sakun har kadam bankar sacchai teri..

chaha h ....

mere lafzon main hon khushhiyan teri ...
wada h....... karungi har pal ibadat teri....

chaha h ...

ban jaye tu takdeer meri....
meri ruh se bhi aaye khushbu teri...

chaha h ...

chahat meri bane takat teri...
jane tu ..sansain meri hain inayat teri ..



chaha h ..

ban jaun khun ki lali teri....
samajh le tere dil ki dhadkan main rahna h khwahish meri..

TANHAAYI

" मेरी तन्हाई में अक्सर जिक्र तुम्हारा हुआ करता है ..
अधूरी आँखों में हमेशा बसेरा तुम्हारा हुआ करता है...


कभी!! रास्ते पर अकेले जाने पर .....

वो पतझर के सूखे पत्तों की रुसवाई में ......
वो सूनी सड़कों की तन्हाई में ......
अरे वो चिलचिलाती धूप में परछाई में ....
प्यासी चिड़िया की तलाश की हर सुनवाई में ....


जाने क्यों ?? अक्सर जिक्र तुम्हारा हुआ करता है ........
मन चाहे या न चाहे , हमेशा सब्र का इम्तेहान हमारा हुआ करता है ....


कभी !! रात को सपने से अचानक जागने पर ...

वो धुंधली यादों के अहसास में ...
धरातल से परे .कल्पना के आगोश में ...
नींद भरी पलकों के कोरों के भीग जाने में ...
कभी खुद को तुझमें ढूँढ पाने में .....

जाने क्यों ??अक्सर जिक्र तुम्हारा हुआ करता है .....
सर्द रातों की तन्हाई में , तेरी चाहत का विश्वास हमारा हुआ करता है ..


कभी !! खुद को आईने में निहारने पर .... ..

कजराई आँखों के सूनेपन की गहराई में ...
मेरी कलायिओं की चूड़ियों की खनक की ख़ामोशी में ...
माथे की बिंदिया की लाली की पहचान की रुसवाई में .....
उलझी लटों को सुलझाने की कोशिश की हाथापाई में ...


जाने क्यों ?? अक्सर जिक्र तुम्हारा हुआ करता है ......
तेरी पहचान में खुद को तलाशने की कोशिश में .......
तन्हाई में !!! अक्सर खुद की परछाई का एहसास हमारा हुआ करता है ...."

ना जाने ! कहाँ ले जाये ये समय की धार...
रोकना चाहे ये बावरी पल पल हर पल अपने मन क विचार ..

क्यों बन गयी ह दासी तेरी आवाज़ की मल्हार की ..
सुन के तेरी आवाज़ की धुन , भूल जाये ये सब कुछ बस बने मीरा जैसे श्याम की ...
न रहा है अपना अब कुछ , बस एक उम्मीद ह तेरी प्रेम की बौछार की ..
आईने से भी कर ही इनकार , अपनी ही छवि से इनकार.......


पल पल हर पल रोकना चाहे ये बावरी अपने मन के विचार ....

लगता है मेरी दुनिया मेरे जीवन में एक ही आकार ..
हाथ से छुटती रेत में ढूंढ रही अपने प्रेम का आकार ..
बहते पानी को न जाने क्यों रोकना छह रही ये मीरा बेकार ..
साथ बहने की कोशिश में भी तो नही हो पा रहा ह मिलने का स्वप्न साकार .

न जाने क्यों हर पल रोकना चाहे ये बावरी अपने मन क विचार ..
बिना तेरे जाने क्यों लगने लगा है जीने का मतलब बेकार ..
फंसती जा रही है अपने ही बनाये जाल में क्यों कर रही हैं वास्तविकता से इनकार..

पल पल हर पल रोकना चाहे ये बावरी अपने मन की विचार ..
ना जाने कहाँ ले जाये ये समाये की धार .....

Am I Beautiful???

AM I BEAUTIFUL ??

This thought often strikes to the mind of a girl whenever she stands in front of a mirror !!
she asks mirror this question until she gets a satisfactory answer that satisfies her ego .........there are times if she doesn't gets the satisfactory answer she continues resolving the answer to this question with a lots of checks and validations those finally serve as the food for her false esteem . Starting from teenage ..whenever sense of physical beauty arises in her mind , sense of opposite attraction gets place in her heart ......this beautiful question having a deformed shape starts knocking at the door of her confidence !! if she gets answer positive ...she interprets this answer as the measure of her confidence ...if not she starts searching the answer . There may be a crowd that won't be satisfied with this explanation of RELATION of confidence and beauty ...[:)]
There was a time when I was on the same side of the belief !! I was at my wits to understand ...
.......Never thought how these things can be related , but the world is not that simple as it seems , everything and feeling is related .
It's very true that God has made everything in it's most beautiful form , but why beauty is always comparable ?
Is one not beautiful if one is not admired or appreciated by someone ? all these kind of questions flooded my mind at a time when whole world almost discarded my existence .....when my world changed totally just because of I've lost the beautiful skin because of a severe reaction of medicine ......? At that point of time to support my existence I had to start my way of thinking from scratch....Everything every person , even every moment of my life was like a challenge to me ...!!!! I have started viewing world with the eyes of others ..infact with the comments of others ......[:)]
As change is the most difficult thing to adapt for a person , same was the case with me . ....all 24 hrs of my day had got changed .....every time there was a question that kept hammering in my mind was " AM I NOT BEAUTIFUL ? "
Does my existence to everybody matters because of my looks ?
Well after a lots of stirring I've got answers to all my questions ........gained my confidence back ! At that critical phase of time the only thing I was bestowed was my parents. .....
Now sometimes I thank GOD for putting me in such a situation because I've learned a lot from all these tough situations of life .. I made my own way ! ! got myself back ....[:)] I started viewing my world with my beautiful eyes and heart !! because nothing was ever as beautiful as my eyes are .........[:)]

Kahlil Gibran has said that
" Your living is determined not so much by what life brings to you ..as by the attitude you bring to your life ; not so much by what happens to you..... as by the way your mind looks at what happens "

Simply I started following the above fact [:)] ........Beauty is actually what beauty does . Sometimes happens what one tries to prove the world by any means that one is beautiful . If we belive that we are beautiful there is no need to explain anything to anyone at all, because at the end it's our opinion that counts . Actually we become what we think of ourselves .

Beauty is a characteristic of a person, animal, place, object, or idea that provides a perceptual experience of pleasure, meaning, or satisfaction.The experience of "beauty" often involves the interpretation of some entity as being in balance and harmony with nature, which may lead to feelings of attraction and emotional well-being.

In spite of knowing all these facts ..in fact most of the times practically applying them why there is need to ask this question to ourselves again and again " Am I Beautiful ?? "


everybody is quite aware of all these thoughts ...even than why this questions always seeks an answer "AM I BEAUTIFUL? "



if anybody has more satisfactory answer .....m waiting ....[:)] [:)]

" I am starting to see how much time I spend trying to do things , that'll put me in a good light. I feel as if I am being dishonest............ "

Most of the times we put ourselves in predicament ....just because we get so much indulged in judgments of day and night ......right or wrong .... , what is good and what is evil ?............................actually we don't want to show anything that we judge is dark, evil or wrong .
At that particular moment of judgment we just choose only one half of ourselves....... ..as we simply choose the aura of sun discarding the beauty of moon ....darkness of night has it's own depth and silence... ..
As we go on nurturing only a single face of life ....simply another face gets darker by and by and a moment comes when we are afraid to open ourselves for the darker sides ....
so whole problem is with the judgments.. when we start judging things and people ......we simply do the same thing with ourselves. We go on judging our thoughts , actions , what is good , what is bad etc . etc . this creates duality and conflicts in our minds .

When we meet someone our mind starts working in the direction of judgments off what is good in us and what is better in us? ...and we start criticizing others .. just because it gives a good feeling ...it's just the thing that gives everybody the pleasure for a fraction of time . All these things flatter our ego and from that moment we start rejecting ourselves and our identity . We forget that every individual is so unique that comparison or criticism is simply meaningless. We can never compare the beauty of ROSE with the beauty of LOTUS.
As we all are human being ..we don't have right to judge right or wrong . Because criticism doesn't need much intelligence .. everything we decide just to satisfy our false ego .........

it's better to drop all the egos ! ! because we have knit our whole world around the ego and we actually are the victims of that web...there may be the situations ...same person whom , we might have criticized at a particular point ....in certain situations ..we feel a great compassion for her/him , a great love , a great desire to help .........it's all about our outlook towards life and cirumstances..........

now, if we simply create the beautiful harmony between day and night , life and death , love and hate or anythings that seem to be at the polar opposites .............. Wholeness in everything is the part of life... whenever we see rosebush first thought that comes into our mind is that how to remove thorns because they may harm you or the roses itself .. if we change our way of thinking like " i always think if thorns would not be there to protect roses .. would roses be able to reach the extreme of their beauty ? NO!!! ! because they always protect them as a guard ........ Thorns in rose have their own beauty ."
If we bound ourselves only to the good side ....everything becomes too boring . If we view things as a whole .. they seem more lively , beautiful and vibrant.
If we start living whole heartedly ...living day as well as the night ..living beautiful moments as well as the darker ones ...we make everything so complementry that everything fits together and becomes a piece of art and beauty .

SO ENJOY LIFE IN IT'S FULL COLORS !!!!!!!